Low

I haven’t been blogging, because I haven’t been writing posts, partly because I’ve been feeling low, and strung out. That shouldn’t keep up for too long.

By weight, blogs are 75% and upwards apology, like zines and communications with thesis advisors and editors.

Here’s something I wrote six months ago, and I wonder at myself:

Avoidance of responsibility can also be a sign of confidence. Either in yourself: you are sure that the responsibility is not onerous, you will get to it at some later date, or that this failure will not affect you (your essential you); or in events, that they will smile on you, and your debts will be erased.

I think I had told myself I had to write one of those a day. So there are a lot of iffy ones. I’m not sure the thought on that one was all bad, but it’s poorly expressed. More exactly: I’m not sure what I’m saying or whether I mean it. And I’m pretty sure I’ve got the intellect to power it through regardless. So it’s strutting; checking its fly with one hand and combing its hair with the other. This one has more zip:

The foundation is measured quickly, but what if you become old, waiting for the concrete to set, before you can begin building.

2 Replies to “Low”

  1. Hi, nice to see that you are back doing this. I just started reading Vonnegut’s “God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater” and was wondering whether you know it. That might well be the funniest first sentence I ever remember reading in a book. Also, do you know Haruki Murakami’s “The End of the World and Hard-Boiled Wonderland?”

    Hmm, I am a bit off-topic, I suppose. Apologies, I really only wanted to say hello.

  2. I don’t know that book yet; I had successfully avoided Vonnegut for years until last fall? last spring? when the server at a place I go to for breakfast talked me into reading The Sirens of Titan, which is fantastic, so I have no reason to avoid him any longer. God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater is now on my reading list.

    Spring 2005 I ran around reading whatever Murakami I could get my hands on – you might also like Dance, Dance, Dance and A Wild Sheep Chase.

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